Title: Monkeyshines
Author: lawless
LJ: http://lawless523.livejournal.com/
Fandom: Saiyuki. With that
title, what else could it be?
Pairing: Sanzo/Goku
Ratings/Warnings: NC-17 for m/m sex
and profanity
Disclaimer: Kazuya Minekura and her
publishers own the rights to Saiyuki and its characters and profit from
them, not me. This is a work of fanfiction. No copyright or other infringement
is intended.
Summary: Goku tests the adage that
the way to a man's heart is through his stomach.
Word Count: ~6,500 words
Happy 39 or 93 day, depending on how dates are written where you live. Here's
my first ever non-AU NC-17 Sanzo/Goku fanfic. Sanzo fought me (and sometimes
Goku) tooth and nail on this one, but the story emerged the victor (I hope,
anyway).
This is also meant to fulfill kirathaun's Christmas wish for a story in which
Sanzo is seduced. She'll have to let me know if I succeeded.
Beta review by the awesome kageotogi.
Monkeyshines
Sanzo smelled a rat as soon as he entered the common area of their suite of
rooms. Instead of Hakkai standing at the counter chopping up vegetables even
Sanzo couldn't name, cutting up bits of meat to make the meal palatable to
Gojyo and Goku, and stirring whatever was simmering in the pot, he
found...nothing.
At any rate, he found nothing simmering on the stove and a few used but empty
pots and pans stacked on top of each other in the sink. He smelled food,
though. It smelled like ramen in chicken broth, Chinese cabbage (though where
Hakkai had found Chinese cabbage now that they were in India, Sanzo didn't
know), and bits of pork.
The rectangular table at which the four of them usually ate had been swapped
with the round table at which he drank his morning coffee and read whichever
newspaper he could get his hands on. Two chairs sat opposite each other at the
small round table; the other three chairs were grouped around the larger
rectangular table.
The round table sported a blue and white checked tablecloth and a candle
flickering inside a hurricane lamp. Two bowls were set out, both with ramen in
them, along with ceramic spoons and wooden chopsticks. He could see the leafy
green of the cabbage and bits of meat he assumed was the pork he'd smelled. A
large jar of mayonnaise, complete with a handmade label that proclaimed in
wobbly characters "Property of Sanzo – Hands Off", sat next to one of
the bowls.
He heard the shuffling of feet coming from one of the bedrooms. His original
thought was mistaken. He hadn't smelled a rat. This caper had 'monkey' written
all over it.
As if on cue, Goku appeared in the doorway of the nearer bedroom.
"Where the fuck is everyone else?"
The stupid idiot grinned mindlessly. "Out," he said.
Sanzo's eyes narrowed. "I can see that, moron. Out where?"
"I dunno. Hakkai said something about going to a restaurant nearby and
then out drinking."
"So, what, are they on a date?"
"Hmm," Goku said, sitting down and stirring the ramen in the bowl.
"I guess. Maybe." He looked up. "What does it matter? We're
here, and I made dinner."
"I saw, monkey brains." Sanzo looked down at the bowl at what was
obviously his place, considering Goku was sitting in the other seat, and said,
"I hope I won't get food poisoning from this," before he too sat
down.
"Whaddya mean?" Goku asked indignantly. "Hakkai showed me how to
make ramen. It ain't so hard."
"Isn't," Sanzo automatically corrected him with a growl. "Just
because the idiot kappa uses bad grammar doesn't mean you should."
Goku's face brightened. "Right! Just like you say that just because you
swear like a longshoreman doesn't mean I should!"
Sanzo smacked his forehead with his hand and shook his head from side to side.
When he removed his hand, he said, "So what's the occasion? Did Hakkai and
Gojyo go out because you wanted to make dinner for me, or did you make dinner
for us because Hakkai and Gojyo were going out?"
A faint blush spread over Goku's cheeks, but he didn't say anything. That meant
Hakkai and Gojyo made themselves scarce because Goku wanted to have dinner
alone with him, which meant...
Damn. Sanzo had noticed the besotted look on the boy's face: the way he watched
him from behind when they were riding in Jeep, the way he kept an eye on him
during battles, the way his eyes searched his face when they were eating, or
talking, or just sitting quietly together, but he'd hoped it didn't mean
anything, really. He'd hoped he'd never need to think seriously about this.
He pushed the thought away. There was time enough to think about that later.
For now he just wanted to get through dinner. So he asked the most obvious
question:
"How are you going to keep your greedy stomach happy with so little
food?"
It didn't occur to him to wonder how he kept his own stomach happy with so
little food. He happened to have as little an appetite for food as Goku had a
ravenous one, possibly from years of the austere diet of vegetables, bean curd,
and rice that was the norm at Buddhist monasteries. Living in the temple with
him hadn't stopped Goku's appetite from being uncontrollable, but then again,
most likely Goku hadn't lived at a Buddhist monastery as a child. He just
happened to wind up at one because Sanzo, and not some other fool, had set him
free.
Goku slurped his broth and smiled. "I'm fine, really, Sanzo!" Sanzo
had to look away; the way Goku's tongue darted out to lick droplets of broth
from the corners of his mouth and the slurping noises he was making were doing
funny things to his insides.
Sanzo spooned some mayonnaise into the ramen broth and stirred. Uncomfortable
thoughts kept intruding as Sanzo lifted his spoon from the bowl to his mouth,
drinking in the broth and sucking down the nearly-soggy noodles while he
wondered how much of Goku's devotion was merely due to his having rescued the
monkey from imprisonment in that craggy cave. Could anything Goku wanted of him
truly be considered fully consensual, considering how much Goku might feel he
owed him?
Then his traitorous hormones, the ones whose existence he usually denied and
kept so well in check that no one suspected he harbored them, reminded him that
Goku was an adult now. He'd grown up a great deal already during this journey,
both emotionally and physically. He no longer looked like a boy, but like the
young man he was.
He also remembered learning that a pretty youkai girl liked Goku well enough to
kiss him before she went to her certain death. Knowing he could attract someone
like that – knowing that he could live a normal life away from the unwelcoming
monastery and the monks who had shunned him – why did Goku still want to be
with him?
Didn't it all come down to attachment? He'd released him from that cruel prison
and Goku felt he owed him. Goku practically worshipped him. Sanzo knew how much
he didn't deserve Goku's worship or devotion. It was dangerous to be so
attached to someone. Nothing in this world was permanent. Besides, what was so
great about him anyway? Anyone could have freed Goku. The fact that he was the
one who did it merely testified to the power of suspicion and taboo.
Goku's voice brought him back to reality. "Hakkai bought a cake for
dessert," he said happily. "I know how much ya like sweets. Mind ya,
it'll be too much for both of us, but Hakkai and Gojyo can have some later
too."
Once more, Sanzo was confused by Goku's atypical lack of appetite. Goku had
finished his entire bowl of ramen, but hadn't had seconds. Not that Sanzo could
see any seconds for him to have. He was tempted to feel Goku's forehead to see
if he was feverish -- that might explain the unusual behavior -- but he decided
to wait until after dessert. Maybe Goku's appetite would return once he got a
whiff of the cake.
Beaming as widely as if he'd baked the cake himself, Goku brought the box with
the cake in it to the table, opened it, and pulled out the cake. It bore
chocolate frosting, a curlicue white border, and pink flowers. Pretty girly,
Sanzo thought, but it the cake tasted good, he wasn't going to complain about
it.
"What flavor is it?" he asked.
"It's yellow cake with strawberry filling," Goku responded. He
retrieved a knife and began cutting slices of cake to put on plates he'd
brought to the table while Sanzo was still absorbed in his thoughts.
Goku slid a plate with a generous slice of cake toward Sanzo, who grunted his
thanks. He used his chopsticks to slice and pick up a chunk of cake. As he
chewed, he observed that the light, moist cake nicely offset the richness of
the frosting and the sweetness of the filling.
When he looked up, he saw Goku smirking. What the fuck was the matter with him?
He watched, transfixed, as Goku brought a bite-sized piece of rich moist cake
to his lips and shoved it in his mouth. Some of the frosting clung to his lips;
his tongue darted out and swiped at it entirely too lasciviously for it to be
an accident.
Between the smirk and the way in which Goku luxuriated in licking the frosting
from his lips, Sanzo realized that this was show was for his benefit. Fuck, was
Goku trying to seduce him? He'd realized Goku had arranged this so they
could be alone together, but he hadn't grasped how serious and determined Goku
was to make something happen between them.
Sanzo almost choked with rage at the thought that the perverted kappa might
have encouraged Goku to engage in this suggestive and lewd display. Sanzo was
certain that Gojyo knew that Goku's hormones had gone into overdrive. Since he
wasn't youkai, Sanzo's sense of smell wasn't as acute as the others' were, but
even he could detect the residual scent of arousal resulting from
self-pleasuring when he roomed with Goku.
He also knew that Goku had a crush on him. It couldn't be more, couldn't really
be love. He had reached out to a miserable and lonely kid and freed him, and in
return, the kid worshiped and adored him. He'd tried to impress on Goku that he
was just a man, not some god, and didn't deserve or need his devotion. Goku
should be building his own life, one separate and apart from Sanzo's.
With these thoughts echoing in his mind, Sanzo set his chopsticks down and pushed
his chair back so that it made an angry scraping noise. As he stood up, Goku
looked at him, startled. The startled look turned pleading when Goku realized
he was about to march off to their shared room in a huff. Goku scrambled out of
his chair and held Sanzo's shoulders down, crying, "Uwaaah! Sanzo! Don't
leave yet!"
Sanzo struggled to keep his balance. Goku was inhumanly strong and was doing
his best to push him back down into his chair. "Get your hands off me,
monkey!" he snarled.
"Make me!" Goku challenged him.
Since he was the kind of person who refused to back down when challenged, no
matter how foolishly, Sanzo resisted the short yet muscular arms holding him in
place. He could probably break Goku's hold if he bit him, but he wasn't ready to
engage in quite that level of brutality yet. He tried sweeping Goku's legs out
from underneath him with his foot instead...
...slipped, and wound up landing in a heap on the floor on top of Goku. Smooth.
"Ow!" Goku yelled, rubbing his knee, which he'd bumped when he fell.
"What did ya do that for, droopy eyes?"
But Sanzo wasn't paying attention. Instead, he was looking toward his groin,
horrified.
Goku tried to sit up, but couldn't, because the weight of Sanzo's body kept him
pinned to the floor. The movement, though, was enough to force Sanzo to shift
around slightly. Goku must have felt something prodding his leg, because he
looked in the same direction as Sanzo with an expression of trepidation mixed
with avidity.
"What are you looking at, monkey?" Sanzo spat out before his brain
caught up with his words.
Goku goggled. "Uh – uh—"
Sanzo did what was, in retrospect, a truly stupid thing. In order to distract
Goku from what was going on 'down there', he pressed his lips against Goku's.
Goku's eyes opened even wider than usual. "Mmmph," he said before
mashing his lips against Sanzo's. Goku seemed exceptionally eager, almost as if
Sanzo was finally responding to him the way he'd long hoped he would. Damn
stupid monkey.
As they pressed their lips together, Sanzo realized the flaw in his impulsive
action: neither of them knew how to do this properly. Goku's chin poked his jaw
and their teeth were in the way somehow. Goku tried to help by tilting his head
to the side a little, but Sanzo grabbed the sides of his face and wouldn't let
go, so Goku parted his lips slightly instead.
Sanzo took advantage of the narrow opening to propel his tongue into Goku's
mouth. The sensation went straight to Goku's dick and encouraged him to open
his mouth wider, his moans echoing into their conjoined mouths.
Sanzo's tongue skimmed lightly over Goku's as they sealed their lips together
and Sanzo nearly sucked the air out of Goku, whose tongue curled up to meet
Sanzo's, his eyelids fluttering closed as he surrendered to the sensory
overload he was experiencing. The tips of their tongues pressed and danced
against each other in a tangle of lust, want, and need until Goku broke away so
he could breathe and swallow the saliva that had collected at the back of his
mouth.
Sanzo only gave him a few seconds to swallow and gasp for air before zeroing in
on his mouth again. This time, he tilted slightly to the right so his nose slid
into place to the side of Goku's nose rather than bumping against it like it
had before. This kissing thing was already beginning to feel comfortable,
almost familiar.
Sanzo shivered, not just with desire, but also with fear. He couldn't fully
acknowledge it even to himself, but the thought of becoming comfortable with
kissing Goku – with kissing anyone - scared him. Each kiss, each touch,
annihilated a little more of his concept of muichimotsu, which consisted
of wanting nothing and needing no one, just as nothing and no one wanted or
needed him. He had invested so much of himself in it that he wasn't sure what
he would be like without it; he wasn't even sure that his self-image could
survive intact in its absence.
Goku, unaware that their actions were tearing Sanzo's self-concept, not to
mention his self-control, to shreds, threaded his fingers through Sanzo's
golden strands as he rocked himself upward, seeking some friction to assuage
his aching arousal. Sanzo took the hint and ground his pelvis against Goku's,
nevertheless careful not to press so hard as to crush the slighter body
underneath his.
When Goku pulled away, he was moaning and panting and soundlessly mouthing
Sanzo's name. Now Sanzo wanted to know what his name would sound like on Goku's
lips as he came.
Damn. The perverted kappa was affecting him too. But even that thought wasn't
enough to dissuade Sanzo from pushing his torso away from Goku's and opening
and adjusting enough clothing to insinuate his hand inside of Goku's boxers.
Goku shivered a little at being exposed to the cool air like that, but soon the
warmth of Sanzo's hand around his cock banished any discomfort. As Sanzo slid
his hand along Goku's length, using the liquid dribbling from the head as
lubricant and sensing the soft skin glide underneath his fingers, Goku arched
back, exposing his neck in all its tawny glory. Sanzo slid his other hand
around Goku's neck and began kissing and nipping his way down to Goku's
collarbone.
Goku squirmed. Sanzo lifted his head to ask, "What's the matter with you,
monkey?"
"Ya got my pants pulled down, but you're still clothed and I'm not doin'
nothin' for ya!"
Uncharacteristically, Sanzo ignored Goku's atrocious grammar. "Fine,"
he said, and sat up, removing his hand. "Happy now?"
Goku looked up at him, irritation darkening his face. "Of course
not," he grumbled. "I'd rather ya were still touchin' me, but I wanna
touch ya too."
Sanzo crossed his arms and suppressed the desire to laugh while Goku's cock
twitched and bobbed. "Nothing's stopping you from touching me," he
said.
No sooner were the words out of his mouth than small, eager hands were untying
the sash holding his robe closed and pulling it off. Sanzo reached up, removed
the sutra from his shoulders, and carefully rolled it up before placing it on
the table. It would be better to store it in its customary spot among his belongings,
but now that he'd gone this far, he didn't want to break things off, nor did he
relish trying to walk to the room with a hard on.
In the meantime, Goku worked at unfastening Sanzo's jeans without much success,
possibly because Sanzo's erection pulled them tight around his crotch. Sanzo
growled and batted Goku's hands away while he yanked the zipper down.
Goku watched, fascinated, as Sanzo's cock poked out; he was a bit taken aback
to see that Sanzo wore no underwear. No wonder Sanzo wanted to unzip his pants
by himself. It would be painful if any sensitive parts got caught in those
metal teeth.
Sanzo used so much force to pop the button on his jeans open that he scraped
his thumb. He hissed and sucked at it until he heard Goku's quick intake of
breath.
Goku's eyes were half-lidded and no longer golden, but dark and burning with
longing and desire. Sanzo paused, doubts flooding in again. He'd been Goku's
authority figure for a long time. Was he exploiting his hold over Goku to
satisfy his own needs? Was it even wise to take this step?
He held Goku's chin in his hand. "Are you okay with this?" he asked.
Goku chuckled with amused surprise. "Do ya have ta ask?" he responded
as he lunged forward, covering Sanzo's mouth with his own.
"Mmmph," Sanzo said as he broke away, placing his hands on either
side of Goku's torso to prevent him from doing that again until after he was
finished speaking. "Look at me," he said when Goku refused to meet
his eyes.
Once Goku looked at him again, he said, "I have to make sure you're not
doing this because you think you owe me something."
Goku frowned. "'M not a kid, Sanzo," he said patiently, "I know
what I want."
The remainder of the thought - I want you - hung in the air between
them, unspoken.
Goku continued, "An' I know ya want it too." He knew Sanzo wouldn't
offer him any reassurance or confirmation, but that didn't mean he was wrong,
just that he had to use his intuition, not Sanzo's own words, to figure out how
Sanzo felt.
This time, it was Sanzo who lunged forward, sucking Goku's tongue into his
mouth and angling his head for maximum effect, as Goku gripped his waistband
and yanked his jeans down.
Goku feasted his eyes on Sanzo's now freed dick in all its swollen, empurpled
glory. He reached out and traced the vein on the underside, causing Sanzo to
tilt his head back, moaning.
Sanzo lay on top of him again, slightly off to one side, so their dicks were
next to each other, and brushed his cock against Goku's.
Goku wrapped his hand around both cocks. In response, Sanzo placed his hand on
top of Goku's. They slid their hands in tandem, using the precum to allow them
to maneuver without the friction of skin rubbing against skin causing a burn.
So absorbed were they that Sanzo's knees digging into Goku's shin, Goku's chin
pressing against Sanzo's shoulder, and the roughness of the carpet against the
exposed sliver of skin at Goku's waist barely registered.
Quiet pants and murmurs of encouragement – "feels so good, Sanzo" and
"fuck, yes" – filled the room. Goku's eyes were mostly shut as he
concentrated on the sheer tactile bliss of having his hand wrapped around both
their dicks while Sanzo's hand held his; Sanzo's eyes were nearly all the way
open so he could watch the expression on Goku's face. Sanzo reflected that Goku
was inexpressibly cute, though Sanzo would cut his tongue out first before he'd
ever breathe a word of that to Goku. The cheeky monkey had more than enough
self-confidence as it was.
It felt strange to Sanzo to have another hand wedged between his hand and his
dick. Admittedly, Goku's dick was nestled right next to his, and it must feel
strange to Goku as well, but Sanzo was not accustomed to adjusting the rhythm
and manner in which he got himself off to someone else's. There were moments
when he wanted nothing more than to grab Goku's hand and take over, but the
impulse faded away when he realized that what Goku was doing, while different
from the way he would do it, felt just as good. In some ways it felt even
better, not just because they were doing it together, but also because it was
new and fresh, not something he'd experienced with the hard slide of his hand
over his dick for so many years now.
Goku's voice became louder as their joined hands grazed their dicks' sensitive
spots. His moans and pants changed to cries, his face became flushed, and Sanzo
could sense the tension building in his body, signaling his impending orgasm.
The corners of Sanzo's mouth quirked up slightly at the thought that he had
brought Goku to this point.
Sanzo had just enough time to complete this thought before the sticky warmth of
Goku's come gushed over both their hands and Goku's strangled cry of
"San-zo!" reverberated around the room. Since he wasn't yet
distracted by his own orgasm, Sanzo was coherent enough to keep Goku's hand
occupied while his spasms overcame him. They only halted once Goku's spasms
shuddered to a stop. Wondering if the whole inn had heard Goku's cry, Sanzo
mused he had never seen Goku's face like that before; now that he'd seen it, he
wanted to see it again, knowing that it was a face reserved solely for him.
Goku flexed his hand slightly to signal to Sanzo to loosen his grip so he could
let go of his own dick and concentrate on Sanzo's. After wishing he had
something to wipe his hand with, Sanzo placed his hand loosely on top of Goku's
and let Goku take the lead in rubbing, gliding, and slapping against his own
length, Goku's spend lubricating their strokes.
Sanzo could feel his oncoming orgasm coiling in his guts and groin. The moment
Goku touched him again, he grunted and came, his come mingling with Goku's.
Goku rolled with him when Sanzo flopped over and lay on his back and continued
to work through Sanzo's orgasm like Sanzo did for him. Sanzo was happy that
Goku let go once Sanzo stopped writhing, thereby sparing him the embarrassment
of having to ask Goku to remove his hand now that the stimulation was not only
no longer needed, but slightly painful.
"That was awesome!" Goku exclaimed.
Sanzo wondered if 'awesome' was the only interjection Goku knew, as he used it
so often. He had to agree with the sentiment, even though it wasn't the word
he'd use.
Not quite everything had landed on their hands; a few drops had dribbled onto
the floor. Goku's eyebrows drew together in a frown and he scrambled to his
feet while trying not to dirty the carpet any further despite the drops that
gravity was coaxing down his thighs. With his other hand, Goku pawed through
the drawer for clean napkins. He dabbed at himself with one, dampened a few
more with water from the sink, and brought them over to Sanzo, who held out his
hand.
"No," Goku said. "I'll wipe ya down."
"I'm perfectly capable—" Sanzo began.
Sanzo had never heard such a feral growl from Goku before except when he'd been
in his youkai form. "This is somethin' I wanna do fer ya! Lettin' me take
care of ya is what people like us do!"
"People like us? What kind of people, exactly?"
Goku replied, "Lovers. Those kind of people."
While Sanzo badly wanted to argue with Goku over the term – he hadn't begun
dinner with the intent of making Goku his lover; there had been no penetration
and thus, according to some, possibly including himself, no sex; and he still
wasn't sure this wasn't a mistake – he found that he couldn't. Even if he
wasn't willing to admit it to himself, it was essentially true. It was
pointless to argue with the emotionally intuitive Goku over such things,
because events inevitably proved Goku right and Sanzo wrong.
But it would be as big a shock to Goku as it would be to him for him to
suddenly turn soft now. So Sanzo replied, "Aren't you getting a little
ahead of yourself there, monkey? Don't be so--"
He paused, realizing that he was about to make a horrible pun.
Goku paused in his ablutions, puzzled. "Don't be so what, Sanzo?"
"Never mind."
Goku rocked back and forth, making Sanzo fear for the carpet again. "What
is it, Sanzo?" he said, sporting his best pleading puppy dog look. Damn,
he knew that Sanzo found it next to impossible to withstand if he kept it up
long enough.
"Oh, for fuck's sake! Don't be so cocksure, monkey."
After a second of incomprehension, Goku began guffawing, rolling and shaking
until tears streamed down his face. Sanzo got up and stalked off toward the
room they were sharing with as much dignity as he could muster while naked and
stinking of semen, thankful that the curtains were closed.
He heard Goku scramble to his feet and run after him. "Sanzo!" he
panted between what had now subsided to bursts of raucous laughter and tackled
Sanzo from behind, enfolding him in a crushing hug, his renewed erection poking
Sanzo in the thigh.
"Goku?" Sanzo asked.
"Yes," Goku replied, his voice muffled because his head was burrowed
against Sanzo's neck and shoulder.
"Get the cake."
Seemingly unimpeded by his hard on, and needing no additional encouragement to
resume their long-delayed interrupted dessert, Goku ran off to retrieve the
slices of cake. Sanzo supposed now that his appetite for sex was partially
slaked, his appetite for food was ascendant.
Sanzo strode back into the main room and retrieved their clothes, which he
dropped in a heap on the floor of the bedroom.
Sanzo wondered whether it would be better for him to at least put his jeans
back on for now to forestall any further monkey business. What they'd done
boiled down to mutual masturbation. It didn't have to mean anything more than
mutual release; at the temple, novices did it all the time without going
further.
It was unhelpful, though, to let his mind wander down these byways. He knew
that what had happened meant more than that to Goku, and truthfully, it meant
more to him, too. He wasn't sure he'd be able to leave matters where they'd
left off, especially if Goku was his usual cheerfully persistent self.
Goku appeared and thrust a plate of cake in Sanzo's face. Sanzo took it and
said, "Am I supposed to eat it with my hands? Typical, idiot." Maybe
he could discourage Goku by being harsh.
Goku shrugged. "I can go get the chopsticks if ya want, but it seemed
silly considerin' how little is left."
Sanzo had eaten maybe a third of the cake before his attempt at a swift
departure, so he didn't consider how much remained at all little, but from
Goku's perspective it probably was a small piece of cake indeed.
Sanzo arched an eyebrow. He wasn't going to give up on insults so quickly, but
if the past were any guide, insults wouldn't disturb Goku's equanimity.
Sanzo snarled, "Get the fucking chopsticks, then."
Goku hurried off to do his bidding. "Here!" he said as he thrust the
chopsticks at Sanzo, who took them with ill-grace and barked, "Close the
fucking door, monkey! Do you want Gojyo and Hakkai to walk in and see naked
monkey running about?"
Goku grinned and looked down at his erection. "I guess not," he said,
and shut the door slightly too enthusiastically. The ensuing thud reverberated.
Sanzo rolled his eyes. "You're as careful as a herd of elephants," he
said.
Goku started to sit down next to Sanzo, but was pinned by a gimlet eye and sat
on his own bed instead. Between large mouthfuls of cake – Sanzo noted with
satisfaction that Goku was no longer eating the cake with salaciously seductive
intent – he asked, "You mad at me, Sanzo?"
"Mmmph," Sanzo said, his mouth occupied with chewing the cake too,
but he also didn't want to answer. He wanted to arrange his turbulent thoughts
into some logical and persuasive form before saying anything to Goku. He
averted his eyes; if he looked at Goku, his eyes would inevitably be drawn to
Goku's arousal. He didn't want to encourage Goku to think he wanted to
continue, nor did he want to dwell on it himself. There were limits to his
ability to resist monkey love, but he'd had a momentary lapse of reason, that's
all.
"Ya don't regret what we just did, do ya?"
Sanzo choked on his mouthful of cake. He should have known that the idiot would
see right through him, as if he were completely transparent. He sometimes
thought Goku understood him better than he understood himself.
"Not regret, monkey – what's done is done – but we—"
Sanzo found his hands held in a bruising grip, Goku's lips on his, preventing
him from saying anything more. Shit, the kid could be damn sneaky when he
wanted to be. It was fucking annoying.
He yielded momentarily. His lungs, scarred from years of cigarette smoking,
began to sear from lack of oxygen.
Sanzo broke the kiss and stared at Goku's blackened pupils. "I
can't—"
Goku stared back, acceptance and love and fucking understanding etched on his
features. Sanzo found that annoying too. "It's okay, Sanzo. I want this,
and you do too. Yer jus' overthinkin' it." With that, he swooped back in.
It felt fucking amazing, and Sanzo felt his own arousal stir. Once that
happened and Goku noticed, which would be any second now, continued denial
would be impossible to maintain with any credibility.
Sanzo pictured Goku laughing in his face as he tried to deny what was so
evident. Maybe he'd trust the monkey's instincts for once, despite feeling that
he was rushing into something he wasn't sure he was ready for.
Not only did Sanzo let himself be kissed, but he kissed back also. The tip of
his tongue darted into Goku's mouth, where it caressed Goku's tongue, which in
turn tried to capture his. He soon abandoned this contact for the more pleasant
pursuit of pressing their puckered lips together while the suction slowly
robbed them of air and conscious thought became near impossible.
Goku sat down on Sanzo's lap, straddling him, Sanzo's erection sandwiched
between his cheeks. This opened up whole new vistas of discomfort. Even though
he enjoyed the physical contact and wasn't going to fight it anymore, Sanzo
wasn't sure either of them were ready for that, at least not right now.
Goku seemed to have realized this too, because he began delightedly rocking
back and forth, trapping and rubbing the head of Sanzo's erection against the
contours of his ass.
"Goku—" Sanzo said warningly.
Goku broke the kiss and grinned. "Feels good, right?"
"Nah, it—" He then undercut his words by emitting a loud moan.
Several loud moans, in fact.
Goku chuckled and wiggled his ass some more. "Told ya!" he crowed.
Sanzo spared a quick curse for whatever gods had unleashed this insatiable,
cheerful, totally irritating monkey on him and gave himself up to the
sensations Goku's actions were causing: the feeling of skin on skin, the
warmth, the closeness - all those things he'd told himself he despised and had
denied himself for so long. There would be time enough to object if Goku wanted
to go that far, but Sanzo hoped he wouldn't.
He palmed Goku's erection, curled his fingers around it, and began pumping,
thumbing the slit and using the pre-cum to coat his fingers. Goku continued to
wriggle on his lap like a wind-up toy gone haywire, driving him to higher and
higher levels of arousal.
"Stop," Sanzo growled. The amount of stimulation was escalating to
the knife edge of pain.
Goku stopped after one more bounce. He leaned back to look searchingly at
Sanzo's face while holding onto Sanzo's shoulders to keep himself from tumbling
backward. "Ya okay?" he asked.
"Ah ah," Sanzo panted. "I am now." Before Goku's actions
could rob him of his resolve again, he said, "It's not a good idea to go
any further."
"What?"
"It'll probably hurt."
Goku laughed. "Oh, ya mean puttin' it inside me? I can probably talk ya
through it. I've heard Gojyo and Hakkai talkin' 'bout it."
Sanzo mind went to a Very Bad Place. He'd ventilate Gojyo's brain this time for
sure for talking about such things within earshot of the monkey. Maybe he
should put Hakkai in his gun's sights too.
"We're not going there," Sanzo said.
"Says who?" Goku said defiantly. "Why are you making decisions
for both of us?" He cocked his head, then added, "Unless you
don't want to go there. Is that it?"
Sanzo nodded, grateful he didn't have to say the words himself.
"I can live with that for now," Goku said, and resumed bouncing.
"Careful," Sanzo warned him. He hoped Goku would figure out what he
meant without his having to say it out loud.
"'kay!" Goku said, slowing down and making his movements less
forceful.
Sanzo resumed pumping Goku's cock in earnest.
Goku's face was flushed and his boyish features were scrunched up in a grimace,
his eyes shut. His pants and moans increased in frequency and volume. Sanzo
realized that there was an upside to Goku's noisiness; he'd never known how
much gratifying it was to hear sounds of pleasure one's own efforts had
produced.
As they rocked, panting with exertion and lust, Goku wiggled his ass while
Sanzo's cock caressed and slipped in and out of his cleft. The head of Sanzo's
cock nudged something soft, warm, and fucking amazing.
Stimulation was overwhelming his senses; his strokes became sloppy and
unpredictable and his breathing became ragged. His abdominal muscles clenched
as pressure built in his groin and balls as he hurtled toward orgasm and come
coated Goku's ass. A few drops rolled to the floor.
Sanzo continued to work Goku's cock as he tried to calm down after his climax.
He felt Goku tense and knew he was close. A couple more strokes did the trick;
Goku came, semen spattering both their abdomens.
They remained in an embrace long after the shuddering ceased. Goku waited for
the come to dry so he wouldn't drip when he got up. He gingerly slid off of
Sanzo's lap, poked his head out the door to make sure the coast was clear, and
retrieved damp washcloths from the bathroom to clean themselves with.
"That was great," Goku said contentedly. Sanzo pulled back the covers
and settled into bed; he didn't comment when Goku joined him and curled up next
to him.
"Go to sleep, monkey," Sanzo said. "I'm tired."
Goku saw the lines of tiredness, and the perspiration, but he also saw a small
smile. He really hoped that Sanzo would remain okay with this, because it was
amazing! Next time around, he wanted to find out if Sanzos really did taste
awesome. He still felt a little wistful that they didn't go all the way, but
there was no point in pushing Sanzo further than he was willing to go.
He flung an arm over Sanzo's shoulder and a leg over the leg closest to him.
His lover looked beautiful and serene in the dim light the lamp produced. Goku
reached over, turned the light off, and fell asleep.
* * *
Goku awoke first. He couldn't help but grin while he watched Sanzo, curled up
next to him like a large sleeping cat. Sanzo was finally his as much as he was
Sanzo's. It felt really, really good.
He stumbled out of the bedroom, wiping the sleep out of his eyes. Hakkai was
sitting at the rectangular table, drinking tea and reading the newspaper.
"Uh," Goku said. The prior night's activities had turned his brain so
mushy that he was having a hard time forming words.
Hakkai could tell how things had gone from the smile on Goku's face, the dazed
look in his eyes, and the smell of sex, but he felt the need to confirm his
conclusion. "So, did everything go well?" he asked.
"Oh, yeah!" Goku said. "We had a great—"
"That's good," Hakkai interjected apologetically. "I just wanted
to make sure." He didn't need or want the details, although he suspected
that Gojyo might try to coax them out of Goku when he wasn't around.
"Where's Gojyo?"
"Still in bed. He's a bit worse for wear from all the alcohol he drank
last night," Hakkai said with the serenity of a man who could hold his
liquor. At Goku's look of concern, he added, "I'm sure he'll get over it
soon. It's not the first time he's had a hangover. We were happy to stay out
late to help you out."
Actually, Hakkai thought, it helped everyone out. Sanzo so he could get laid and
be with someone who cared about him and wanted to be with him. Him and Gojyo so
they didn't have to put up with whatever portion of Sanzo's surliness was due
to unacknowledged sexual frustration. And Goku, of course, so he could finally
get what he'd been craving for months that the monk had been pretending not to
notice because he found denial so much more comfortable than confronting his
long-held assumptions.
"I'm gonna go take a shower," Goku announced. Hakkai waved a hand to
indicate that was fine by him and went back to his drinking his tea and reading
the newspaper.
Sanzo emerged from the bedroom while Goku was still in the shower. Hakkai had
to stifle a laugh at how tousled his hair was and how he too stank of sweat and
semen along with the pungent aroma of cigarettes that always clung to his skin.
Apparently he didn't do a good enough job, because Sanzo snarled, "What
the fuck are you grinning at?"
Schooling his features, Hakkai replied airily, "Nothing. I have no idea
what you're talking about."
"Hn." Sanzo looked at Hakkai's mug, then over at the counter, and
concluded no one had made any coffee yet. He let out a long-suffering sigh and
headed for the cupboards.
As Sanzo stood there trying to remember how much coffee to put in, Hakkai finished
the section of the paper he knew Sanzo liked to read first and laid it at
Sanzo's place. When Sanzo began swearing and asking him irritated questions
about how to use the coffee maker, Hakkai realized that no matter how much had
changed, some things would always remain the same.
/fin/
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