Stay
Author : lillypuff
Email: lilly_puff22 (at) yahoo (dot)
com
LiveJournal: http://lillypuff.livejournal.com
Characters From : Saiyuki
Pairing : Gojyo x Hakkai
Rating : R
Warning(s) : character death, gore,
language, sexuality
Summary : Gojyo remembers his life with Hakkai
Disclaimer : Sadly, Saiyuki does not
belong to me. I wish it did =) Just having some fun. Don't sue me, I don't have any money anyway.
Gojyo was hovering over Hakkai's long body. He was straddling the man, his knees on
either side of Hakkai's waist, each of his hands planted firmly in the dirt
above each of Hakkai's shoulders. Only
a couple inches of air stood between their faces. Gojyo's breath was coming out in heavy gasps as he stared into
the youkai's eyes.
On a normal day, this would have been the
beginning of a great evening and Gojyo would have been ball of emotional
pleasure. This though, was no normal
day and he was only filled with fear.
"Hakkai," he nearly shouted, "don't
even think of leaving me."
"Kappa…" Hakkai's voice was barely a
whisper.
"And don't you 'Kappa' me either. I am not going to let you give up."
No reply came from the youkai as Gojyo watched a
small trickle of blood begin to fall from the corner of Hakkai's mouth.
Gojyo leaned his head down further to whisper in
Hakkai's ear.
"Stay."
"Gojyo…I…I don't know if I can give you what
you want."
Gojyo's heart sank hearing those words again. It meant Hakkai was unsure of what was going
on and that worried him.
*****
"Gojyo,
I don't know if I can give you what you want."
Hakkai
sat on the bed across the room from Gojyo, his face showing a mixture of
emotions. Gojyo's own face showing only
how nervous he was.
"You
don't even know what it is."
"Then
tell me."
"I
want you. I don't care how, I don't
care when, I've waited this long, I can wait longer. That's all I want, and I'll take you in what ever way you feel
fit to give."
Hakkai's
last reservations that this was just a moment of drunken foolishness were swept
away in those words and he willingly followed.
"I
think that can be arranged."
*****
Hakkai's head dropped to the side.
"Hakkai.
HAKKAI! Damn you, look at
me."
Hakkai turned his head to face Gojyo again, an
action which, to the red head, looked like it took way too much of an effort.
"Gojyo, forgive me."
"Hold it right there. Don't go getting all melodramatic on me you
fucking youkai. I swear to god that if
you give up on me now I will personally find someone to revive you so I can
kill you again myself. Do you hear
me?"
Hakkai managed a weak smile, "You're right, I
should leave the dramatics to you, you are doing a fine job of it for the both
of us."
Gojyo wanted to laugh, but he couldn't. He wanted to tell Hakkai everything was
going to be ok, but he wouldn't. It
would sound like a lie.
Gojyo lowered his head closer to Hakkai's, his own
trembling lips brushing against Hakkai's dry ones. He could taste the blood that flowed from the youkai's
mouth. He had tasted Hakkai's blood
before, mostly from when playful bites had become something more animalistic in
nature. It tasted different now, in the
way bubblegum tastes different the more you chew. It tasted used up.
"Please Hakkai. Please don't leave me." His own voice sounded so alien to
him. It was so weak and pathetic, so
scared and desperate.
"Oh Gojyo, believe me, it's the last thing I
want to do right now."
"Really?"
*****
"Really?"
"Would
I lie to you Hakkai?"
"No,
I don't think so. Unless you really had
something to gain out of it." A sly smile played on Hakkai's face.
"Ouch
man, that hurts."
"Relax
you silly Kappa, I was kidding. Anyway,
Sanzo really said that?"
"Yeah,
he said he was glad we finally stopped being fucking idiots about the whole
thing. He said even Goku was wondering
when we were going to get down to business, though I doubt those were the
monkey's exact words."
"Yes,
I imagine that was Sanzo's own carefully selected phrase. He has such a way with words after
all." Gojyo could almost see the
sarcasm dripping from Hakkai's lips as he spoke.
"It's
more then I'd ever expect him to say on the subject. It would appear we have the monk's unspoken blessing."
"Praise
the gods!" Hakkai said with a roll of his eyes.
*****
Fucking
Hell. Where is everyone?
Gojyo's mind was reeling. He had no idea where Sanzo and Goku
were. He hoped like Hell they weren't
playing out a similar scene somewhere else.
He hadn't seen Hakuryu since before the most recent ambush which had
left Hakkai so close to death. He was
afraid to move Hakkai, but if he had access to the Jeep he would risk it,
though he wasn't sure where he'd go.
Hakkai had fallen into a half-sleep and as much as
it pained Gojyo to allow his to slip into unconsciousness, he couldn't bare to
deprive the man of a temporary escape from his pain.
Gojyo rolled himself from his protective position
over his lover, the movement reminding him of his own wounds. No single one was very serious, but there
were many, and their combined screams when he moved made him bite back his own
cry of pain. The worst was on his back,
it felt like it stretched from his left shoulder to his lower back and it was
still bleeding, where many of the others had been plugged by drying blood.
Fuck.
Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. His
mental state was unraveling quick. He
had no idea what he should do, what he could do. He had never felt so helpless before.
"Do you think the others are OK?"
Hakkai's sudden words almost startled the half
breed into the air.
"Jesus Christ Hakkai, you scared the shit out
of me."
Hakkai chuckled dryly, "Sorry. I hope they
are OK."
"Me too.
I haven't heard a gunshot in thirty minutes or so. I'm not sure if that is good or bad."
Hakkai sighed.
"Sometimes I wonder if we should have just stayed home."
*****
There
was a loud knocking at the door to their room.
"Finish
your morning fuck so we can get on the road, I want to make it to the next town
today."
It
was obviously Sanzo, ever the ray of sunshine.
Gojyo
rolled his eyes, then returned his gaze to Hakkai who had a thoughtful look on
his face.
"Sometimes
I wonder if we should have stayed at home."
Gojyo
wasn't sure if Hakkai was serious in that sentiment.
"What? And miss all this?" Gojyo replied,
gesturing with one arm at the splendor of their room, "I don't know about
you but I get a certain amount of satisfaction from knowing he's seething
inside because we're getting some and he's not."
"You
don't know if that's really the case."
"True,
but I can hope, right?"
Gojyo
moved closer to Hakkai, their stomachs pressing up against each other. Gojyo could feel Hakkai's scar rubbing up against
his own soft skin, mingling with the sweat of their morning tumble. He put on his best puppy-dog-love-me face.
"So
what do ya say? He pretty much gave us
permission to go at it again before we leave."
Hakkai
kissed the red head and smiled.
"As
if we needed his permission."
Gojyo
ran his hand down Hakkai's back, feeling every muscle, every healing scar from
small wounds taken in battle. He felt
Hakkai's lips on his neck, moving to his shoulder, then down his chest…
*BLAM
BLAM BLAM*
His
eminence, the high and mighty Genjo Sanzo had returned.
"You
two better not be trying to squeeze in a second one. I'm taking Goku to get some breakfast. Either join us soon or be ready and waiting when he's done."
Hakkai
spoke up, "We'll be down soon Sanzo."
Sanzo's
only reply was a grunt of annoyance.
"I
hate that he knows us so well," grumbled Gojyo as he returned to his
ministrations.
"Indeed. Well, shall we join them?"
"I
thought you said we don't need his permission."
"I
did, and we don't, but he's gonna keep bugging us until we come out."
"What
does it matter? It's your dragon he
needs to get his holy hinny around, he can wait."
Now
it was Hakkai's turn to roll his eyes.
Gojyo knew it was just Hakkai's way of saying yes without actually saying
it, so he could claim innocence later if necessary.
"You're
going to turn me into a sex fiend you know."
Gojyo
raised his eyebrows, "Turn you into?
Shit. If anything, I'm just
bringing it out."
Gojyo
smiled and kissed the youkai. Just
another day on our journey west he thought as he focused completely on the task
at hand.
*****
Gojyo couldn't help but smile at the memory. It amused him that he had always had trouble
remembering details about his encounters with the various women he had been
with over the years, not that he wanted to, but he could recall moments with
Hakkai practically on command.
And
there in lies the difference, he thought to himself
as he stared at the motionless body of his lover. He watched his chest rise and fall ever so slowly. This
can't end well…
A rustling in the near by bushes roused Gojyo from
his thoughts. Despite his injuries
Gojyo was on his feet in an instant, weapon in hand, facing the direction the
noise had come from, waiting for whatever was to come.
A bloody figure stumbled out from behind a cluster
of bushes.
"Goku!" Gojyo nearly jumped into the air
with excitement, he had never been so happy to see the damn monkey before,
"Holy shit Goku, are you ok? Where
is Sanzo?"
Goku had been staring at the ground when he
emerged from the bushes, but upon hearing Sanzo's name, he raised his
head. Gojyo could see the tears welling
up in Goku's eyes.
Gojyo's heart sank. Fuck me, this can't be
happening.
"Goku?
Come over here."
Goku walked over to Gojyo where he fell to his
knees, obviously exhausted. He dropped
his head again. Gojyo squatted down so
he could be at a similar level with the young man.
"Oi, Goku, look at me. What happened to Sanzo?"
Goku looked up at the red head, "I don't
know. He was bleeding really bad, so I
left to see if I could find you guys, to see if Hakkai could help him." At
the mention of the youkai's name, both men looked at the man lying behind them.
"I didn't want to go too far from Sanzo though, so I went back and he was
gone."
"Gone how?
Taken? Walked away? Or…gone?"
"He wasn't there anymore, just a bloody patch
where he had been."
"Shit."
"I started looking for him and after awhile I
stumbled out here."
"Are you ok?"
"I think so, I'm really hungry, and tired,
most of this blood isn't even mine. Is
Hakkai ok?"
Gojyo opened his mouth to speak, but someone beat
him to it.
"I'm fine Goku."
Gojyo was pretty sure Goku wasn't buying it, but
he looked like he accepted it none-the-less.
He watched Goku walk over to Hakkai, his eyes widening when he got a
closer look at his friend's current state.
Goku looked back up to Gojyo, eyes still full of tears that he was
managing to hold back. Gojyo looked
away.
"Sit down and rest monkey. I'll keep an eye out for any trouble."
Gojyo watched Goku as he plopped down on the
ground, stretching out for a moment, then curling himself up almost in a neat
little ball beside Hakkai. Gojyo wished
he could do the same.
*****
They
were camped out in a small woodland area.
Goku and Sanzo had retreated to the tent to sleep. Gojyo was restless and was pacing the
campsite, he could feel Hakkai's eyes following him.
"Like
what you see?"
"Yes
and at the same time, no."
Gojyo
paused mid-step, turning his head to look at Hakkai. "I hope you are going to explain that."
"Oh
relax you paranoid cockroach. Of course
I like what I see, but you can't expect me to just sit here and watch you and
not wonder what's wrong."
"Well,
don't expect much of an answer, I'm not even sure what's wrong."
"You
need to relax, come here."
Gojyo
sighed and walked over to Hakkai who was sitting on a log near the fire they
had built. He sat down between the
youkai's long legs, letting his arms droop over Hakkai's muscular thighs. He let his head fall back against Hakkai's
torso, closing his eyes, relishing in the comfort he always found when he was
this close to his lover. He could feel
Hakkai running skilled hands through his hair.
"Come
on Gojyo, spill it. What's eating
you?"
"Would
saying 'everything' be a cop out?"
"Hmm,
yes, I believe that would fall under the cop out category," Hakkai paused
in thought, when he spoke again his voice sounded slightly more concerned,
"Do you really mean everything?"
Gojyo
forced a chuckle, "Now who's being paranoid?"
"Well,
when you say everything like that…"
"Sorry,
I guess I should have said almost everything."
"That's
better. So, care to elaborate."
"I
don't think I can at the moment. I need time to think about things. I think I'll head to bed for now."
Gojyo
stood, turning to Hakkai for a moment to kiss him softly on the lips. He walked to the tent, not looking back, but
as he entered the canvas domain he could hear Hakkai sigh.
*****
Gojyo was roused from his thoughts by a racking
cough that made him twinge with pain just from listening to it. The coughing had roused Goku as well, who
was at Hakkai's side almost as quickly as Gojyo. Hakkai's hands searched frantically for something to grab onto as
the coughs racked through his body.
Gojyo quickly grabbed one of Hakkai's hands with one of his own, Hakkai
squeezing back with a fierce strength that until now Gojyo hadn't believed the
man still possessed.
Gojyo tried to keep his voice calm, "Oi,
Hakkai, come on man, just relax. Take a
deep breath."
Hakkai continued coughing. Gojyo looked up at Goku who was almost white
as a sheet. The tears had begun to well
up in his eyes again and Gojyo had to look away, it was the only thing he could
do to keep his own tears back.
"Damn it Hakkai, take a deep breath. You have to relax."
Gojyo brought his head down to Hakkai's so he
could whisper in his ear, their foreheads touching.
"I stayed once, remember that, I stayed. Now
it's your turn," there was a touch
of anger in Gojyo's voice.
Hakkai tightened his grip on Gojyo's hand. It hurt, but Gojyo thought it was a good
sign. He hoped like hell it was a good
sign.
"I'm trying." Hakkai murmured between
his attempts to take in useful breaths of air, "Damn it, I'm trying."
Gojyo raised his head to look at Hakkai. His eyes were closed and from the corner of
the functional one he could see a trail of tears that had cut through the grim
and blood that colored his face. Gojyo
shut his eyes tightly against the sight before him. He wondered when he would wake up from this nightmare.
He heard movement and opened his eyes. Goku had backed away and the young man looked
like he was ready to bolt at any second.
"Goku, can you do me a favor?"
"Su…sure...what?"
"I want you to take a look around, see if you
can find Hakuryu. If he's in a fit
state to travel we really need him.
We've got to get out of here."
Gojyo had a feeling that is the dragon was in a fit state to travel he
would have made an appearance already, but he had to hope.
"What about Sanzo?"
"We'll find him too Monkey, but we need to
find Hakuryu first. Don't go too far
and if you run into trouble, call out, I'll come. OK?"
The young man nodded and walked off.
Gojyo turned his gaze back to Hakkai. The coughing had stopped but Hakkai's
breathing was more ragged and forced then before. The youkai still had a firm grip on the red head's hand and Gojyo
wouldn't have wanted him to release that grip for anything.
Gojyo could hear Goku calling out for the dragon
in the distance.
*****
Gojyo
stared at his bandaged upper arm.
Hakkai had cleaned and treated his wound in silence and was currently
cleaning up the small mess he had made.
He waited patiently for the tongue lashing he knew was about to come.
Hakkai
returned from the bathroom of their inn room and sat on the bed opposite the
one where Gojyo now sat. He fixed Gojyo with an icy glare.
If
looks could kill, Sanzo would want to learn THAT one but quick, Gojyo thought
to himself.
"So,
would you care to explain what that was about," Hakkai's voice was calm
compared to the look on his face as he gestured to Gojyo's wound.
"Don't
worry about it, it's not that bad."
"No,
you're right, it's not, but it would have been a lot worse if Goku hadn't had
the good sense to push you out of the way."
Gojyo
fixed Hakkai with an icy glare of his own.
The last thing he needed reminding of right now was the fact that the
stupid monkey had probably saved his life.
"I
was distracted ok."
"You
don't get distracted in battle Gojyo."
"Yeah,
and you don't get angry, and yet here you are…"
"If
I'm angry it's only because the guy I care about most in this world has been
acting like a completely different person the last few days; and an idiot to
boot."
"I've
had some things on my mind lately."
"Yes,
I recall you saying that the other night. Care to elaborate further?"
Gojyo
said nothing.
Hakkai
sighed, "You said you needed some time to think about it and I respected
that, but after today I think you owe me an…"
"I've
been thinking of leaving."
"What?"
"You
heard me. I'm tired of this life. I'm tired of this journey. I'm just…fucking tired."
"Well,
I can't say I'm pleased to hear this."
"And
the worst part is that no matter how many times I ran it through my head, I
always saw me leaving alone."
Hakkai
stared at him, eyes wide.
"Don't
look so surprised. You know you would stay,
even if I left. You are honorable like
that. You've made a commitment, I
wouldn't ask you to leave anyways. I'd
be content to wait for you to come back."
"I
believe I recall making a commitment to you as well Gojyo."
Gojyo
said nothing, he only smiled weakly. A few moments of unbearable, uncomfortable
silence passed between them.
"I
don't think I'd let you leave. Sanzo
and Goku can't do this on their own."
"You
seem to forget Sanzo was ordered to take both of us with him. It seems the powers that be don't think they
can't do this without either of us."
Hakkai
rose from where he sat and joined Gojyo on the other bed, sitting close beside
him. He rested his chin on Gojyo's
shoulder as he ran a hand down the length of his arm, stopping at the red
head's hand to entwine their fingers.
"What
would you do if I asked you to stay?"
"What
do you mean?"
"I
want to know if you'd stay because I asked you to, or if you'd stay because you
wanted to try to see this through. Or
would you just walk away?"
"I
don't know."
Hakkai
released Gojyo's hand and placed it under the red head's chin, turning his head
so they were facing each other, only the slightest amount of space between
them.
"Gojyo. Please stay."
"Will
you give me time to think about it.?"
"Of
course. In the meantime, please try to
be more focused should we find ourselves in battle again."
Gojyo
smirked, "I will. The last thing I
want is to be saved by the monkey again."
He
embraced Hakkai then. It was a fierce
hug and he found it hard to let go.
*****
I
stayed, Hakkai, Gojyo thought, I
stayed. And now you…
"Gojyo."
Sanzo?
Gojyo turned around, still holding Hakkai's hand,
to face the monk.
"Shit Sanzo, where have you been? The monkey was nearly in tears wondering
what happened to you."
Gojyo gave Sanzo a good looking over. The top of his robes were hanging around his
waist. There was a large wound on his
stomach, wrapped in what appeared to be shreds from among the many folds of his
priestly attire.
"Where is Goku?"
"I sent him off to look for Hakuryu, we could
use him right now if he is able."
"You sent him alone?"
"He's in better shape then any of us. Are you OK?"
"I've been better, but I'll survive.
You?"
"Same."
Sanzo took a good look at Hakkai,
"Hakkai?"
"Not as good. Honestly I am amazed he is still holding on."
"He's always been strong."
Gojyo was about to respond, but Goku's voice rang
through the trees.
"Gojyo? I found Hakuryu." Gojyo watched as Goku emerged from the
trees, carrying the dragon in his arms.
FUCK. Well, that about does it folks.
Gojyo could see the dragon was awake, but he could
also see he was injured.
"I found him by a stream. He's hurt, but I don't think it's too
serious. I cleaned his wounds out for
him a bit and…" Goku paused and Gojyo realized that Goku had just now
noticed Sanzo, "Sanzo! You're
OK."
Gojyo watched as Goku ran to embrace Sanzo, almost
squashing the dragon he held in the process.
Hakuryu let out a squeak in protest.
"Oh, sorry boy." Goku sounded very apologetic. He brought the dragon to Hakkai, placing the
injured beast next to his master.
"What are we going to do?" the young man
asked after a couple moments silence.
Sanzo said nothing.
"I guess all we can do is wait."
*****
"Kenren?"
"Hmmm?"
"You
awake?"
"Hmph. I am now."
"Never
mind. Go back to sleep."
"What
is it?"
"Nothing,
I just have a lot of things on my mind.
It's making me restless."
"Want
me to distract you…again?"
*****
What
the FUCK? That was…no, it couldn't have been…could it? How the hell did I…
"Gojyo?"
Hakkai's voice brought him back to the present.
"I'm here Hakkai. Everyone is, even Hakuryu, Goku found him."
Hakkai smiled as he turned his head towards
Hakuryu. "Hello boy, you'll be ok,
Goku will take care of you, won't you Goku?"
"Sure, Hakkai, you bet." Gojyo could see
the young man was trying his best to keep smiling.
"Sanzo?"
"Hakkai?"
"I'm sorry I won't be there for the
end."
"Don't apologize," Sanzo spoke in a
choked voice, "it's not your fault."
Hakkai returned his gaze to Gojyo. Gojyo memorized the face before him, knowing
he would not look upon it again. They
stared in silence for a few moments, until Sanzo spoke again.
"Come on Goku, let's go look for a place to
sleep for the night. Bring
Hakuryu."
"OK, Sanzo." Goku picked up the dragon and patted Hakkai on the shoulder. Hakkai placed the hand not held by Gojyo on
top of Goku's, squeezing gently as he smiled.
Goku stood and walked over to Gojyo.
Gojyo was unsure of what the monkey was going to
do until he leaned down and embraced the red head in a half hug being sure not
to get the dragon caught in the middle this time. Gojyo snorted and ruffled Goku's hair.
Gojyo then watched Sanzo and Goku walk away. As they disappeared into the trees, he felt
something wet and warm beginning to trickle down his face. He had given up holding back his tears. He turned to look at Hakkai who also appeared
to have given up holding back his emotions.
"Hakkai…"
"Oh Gojyo…I'm so sorry."
Gojyo lost his last bits of control upon hearing
those words, "Don't you dare
apologize to me. This is not your fault. Do you understand?"
"Yes."
Gojyo could only stare at Hakkai as if sheer force
of will alone could keep his lover earthbound for awhile longer.
"Gojyo…are you still holding my hand?"
"Yeah, I haven't let it go."
"I can't feel it anymore."
Gojyo squeezed the youkai's hand in a futile
gesture to show he still held it.
"Are…you…leaving?"
"Yes, I think I am. But there is one thing I have to do first."
Gojyo watched in amazement as Hakkai forced
himself into a sitting position.
"Come here," Hakkai whispered, "I
don't think I have the strength to move myself closer to you."
Gojyo complied quickly. He supported Hakkai's weak body in his arms. Hakkai rested his head against Gojyo's chest
as he put one hand on the back of the red head's neck. Gojyo could feel Hakkai's tears seeping through
his own bloodied shirt.
"I'll miss you Kappa," Hakkai pushed
Gojyo's head down towards his own, "and I love you."
Gojyo tried to reply through sobs he could no
longer hold back, "I…you…too," was all he could manage.
"Shh…I know Kappa, I know." Hakkai smiled,
then pushed Gojyo's head the last couple inches to meet his own and their lips
touched in their final kiss.
Gojyo tasted blood, tears and sweat in that kiss
and he doubted he would ever forget it.
Hakkai broke the contact first, settling his head
back against Gojyo's chest. Hakkai
wrapped one of his arms around Gojyo's back and the red head suddenly felt
warmth as he was wrapped in a glowing green light. The realization of what was happening hit Gojyo like a bolt of
lightning. He tried to find the words
to shout at Hakkai. He tried to yell at
him to stop using his last ounce of strength to heal his wound, but before he could put a coherent sentence together, it
was over.
Gojyo watched as Hakkai closed his eyes, a
satisfied smile upon his face, as if he were merely about to take a mid day
nap, then Gojyo couldn't bare to watch anymore. He felt Hakkai take a breath, then exhale. And then he felt no more.
He felt his own body start to tremble and now that
he was alone in the woods, Sha Gojyo gave himself fully to his grief.
*****
"So,
when we get home, once this is all said and done, what do you want?"
"A
bigger house," Gojyo chuckled as he continued, "or at least a bigger
bed. That thing wasn't made for two
people."
"Hmmm,
yes, that would be nice. Anything
else?"
"I
don't know. Maybe a family."
Hakkai
looked at him in surprise, eyes wide, "You, Sha Gojyo, want a
family?"
"I
said maybe. But hey, if I've got the
house, and I've got a housewife," a broad grin stretch across the half
breed's face, "I might as well have the pitter patter of little feet as
well."
"I'd
like that very much." Hakkai
nuzzled closer to the red head.
"Yeah,
I thought you might," Gojyo replied, still grinning.
*****
It had been two days since they had buried
Hakkai's body. They were getting ready
to leave the woods. They still weren't
able to travel via Jeep, but they had to make some progress. They needed to get to a town before they all
starved. Or before Goku's pleas for
food drove them all crazy. Gojyo knew
they could never get to the next town in time if they only walked, but if they
could make some progress it would hopefully make things easier for Hakuryu.
Gojyo stood up, the two, three counting the dragon,
remaining companions of their group looking up at him.
"I'll be back in a few minutes."
Sanzo spoke as he turned to walk away,
"Gojyo…"
Gojyo braced himself for whatever idiotic thing
the monk was about to say.
"Take your time."
Gojyo looked back at the monk, "Thanks
man."
*****
Gojyo sat at the foot of the grave where they had
put Hakkai to rest. They had covered it
with large rocks in hopes of keeping the body below safe from wild animals.
"You deserve much better then this unmarked
grave my friend."
Gojyo continued to sit at the grave, not wanting
to move. Not wanting to believe this
was the last goodbye.
His thoughts kept going back to the
"memory" he had. He had been
lying in a bed with Hakkai, yet at the same time it wasn't Hakkai. And not-Hakkai had called him Kenren, which
had to mean that not-Hakkai was Tenpou, right?
The thought was giving him a headache.
Had he remembered something from their first lives in Heaven that until
now he had only heard referenced to by other gods they had met on their
journey? Or had he, in his weakened
state of mind simply created the "memory"? He supposed he'd never really find out.
Oddly enough, he suddenly felt comforted. If it had
been a real memory, perhaps it was a sign that some day they would meet
again. They may not remember what had
come before, but Gojyo thought he'd be OK with that.
Gojyo stood, ready to go back to the rest of his
companions. Before he left though, he
removed a thick strand of blood red hair from one of his pockets and placed it
under one of the rocks that covered the grave.
As he did so, he laughed to himself.
Man,
you are such a sappy fucking water sprite Sha Gojyo. He smiled at the jab at himself. When it came down to it, his hair was the
best way he could think of marking the grave not only as Hakkai's, but as his
own.
He took a look around, memorizing the area so he
could hopefully find it again later, then he walked back to meet his
friends. On the whole, he may still be
journeying west, but Gojyo was sure that a part of him would be staying here
forever.
The End
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